Sunday, February 21, 2010

Le Reveillon

The sky is laced with fitful red,
The circling mists and shadows flee,
The dawn is rising from the sea,
Like a white lady from her bed.

And jagged brazen arrows fall
Athwart the feathers of the night,
And a long wave of yellow light
Breaks silently on tower and hall,

And spreading wide across the wold
Wakes into flight some fluttering bird,
And all the chestnut tops are stirred,
And all the branches streaked with gold. 

-Oscar Wilde

Monday, February 15, 2010

Nature of history

History is never a linear process but a multi-faceted one at that. You know how it is when you remember an event, what one person said but as time passes you start to have a different perception of the same event as when you were first confronted with it. Ask a person how he sees a particular event as compared to when he is first confronted with it and he will have a different perception of it. Time heals all wounds but time also distorts certain details. The distortion happens due to external influences. Therefore there is a likelihood to use time as a platform of minimizing and marginalizing the severity of certain actions. History is a social construction of many external opinions trying to gain dominance with their different perspectives. History is never objective but always subjective. The accessibility to facts and its consistency play a very important role in determining accuracy. One of the ways to impose an influence can be the use of time. Time provides with it a form of vagueness, a form of ambiguity that mystifies and distorts what has happened. Time interrupts the linearity of a historical process and if used negatively to serve a certain agency may distort the perception of circumstances. In understanding a situation, one has to see it with a form of objectivity and self reflexivity. History can be subjective, but subjectivity need not be contamination. Agency and consistency are considerations to bear in mind when considering the accuracy of a historical account.

Tolerance for ambiguity

Just woke up not long ago. It's the second day of Chinese New year! Spent the whole day sleeping..eating..watching movies. Was really tired yesterday because went out with a few friends before that day to catch a movie and chill out till 5am in the morning.

I have been thinking about something I read for some time. I found out that in every culture there is a different degree of tolerance for ambiguity...and that is one of the causes for airplane crashes. During investigation of air plane crashes, the black box is often analyzed as it contains the recording of all the conversation between the pilots with the control tower. They found out that the Korean culture has one of the highest tolerance for ambiguity. What do I mean? It means that in a conversation with a Korean, it is never a bad thing to be indirect. Even in trouble, before you are going to crash, a particular case saw one pilot not daring to tell the control tower what is going on directly. The reason is that in their culture...the person in command at the control tower is reputably very strict and authoritative. Pilots are usually afraid of the person in command. In an exchange that was recorded...when the pilot mentioned that he thinks that they are running out of fuel and may have to land soon..the response was that they had to wait a bit longer as the ground was still not ready. The pilot interpreted that the person at the control tower was angry with him and decided to keep quiet. Eventually that particular plane crashed. Sounds absurd? But it's true.

Tolerance of ambiguity can be both a good or bad thing. It is a tactful way of communication but you never know what the person really means. You need to read into his words. It is a cultural thing in some countries. Especially when dealing with another culture which is not ambiguous, there is a high likelihood of miscommunication. It can be very frustrating as well as the conversation is built on hints. On the other hand, Singapore rank among the top as one of the least ambiguous culture. Singaporeans are more direct in conversations and communicating intentions.

I thought this is a very interesting observation. The tolerance for ambiguity I feel goes beyond just in conversations as mentioned in the book. I think it is an important aspect of life. Ambiguity is often experienced when people are afraid to ask questions. In the the particular incident with the air plane crash..the pilot was afraid to ask for help directly because he has been socialized into thinking and behaving a certain way. He has been trained to tolerate ambiguity in his culture. An American  expert was employed by the airline to come and help rectify the problem of air crashes and this phenomenon of ambiguity was one of the observations he made. The Koreans were put through a de-socialization process where they were de-socialized from ambiguity in communications in the air. Ambiguity can be something that some people can live with more than others because they have been brought up that way.

In the context of Singapore, we are trained in critical thinking skills in secondary, junior colleges and universities. Especially in universities and even junior colleges there is an inclination towards the skill of deconstruction. I think our tolerance for ambiguity should not discourage us from thinking and objectively appraising any situation. A tolerance for ambiguity is not faith. Faith is not contradicted but sometimes ambiguities have contradictions.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Thoughts from a Thursday morning

It's Thursday already. It's been an eventful week with a number of assignments due this week. Spent hours doing my biotechnology module..not really a very science person. I'm definitely going to S/U that mod. It's interesting...but yea when you have to finish a bio module in 3...4 months it kindda kills your interest in that subject. And what's more I have my IPPT today... Not sure if I'm ready...but I'm just gonna do my best. Went for runs this week also..but it's been quite some time since I ran competitively.

I'm quite looking forward to next week as it's a new chapter of my life..Chinese New year..recess week.. Hanging out with my buddies gonna be fun man...

Lately I've been thinking. What are the things that give you peace? Sometimes we make decisions without feeling a certain peace from God. Like what Paul Scanlon said is very true...peace is the one thing that the devil cannot counterfeit. I think our gut feeling is one of the things we should trust in making decisions.

Anyway..I'm going to do a test run for my 2.4km and head off to school after that for my lecture. Have a blessed day ahead! :)

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Digitization of identity

I was just thinking of something quite interesting while I was surfing some internet networking sites. With the advent of technology, people are increasingly sharing their thoughts online. The frequency and intimacy of thoughts appears to manifest more and at a higher level through these sites. I think I'm guilty of that as well.

With technology easing us into a culture of globalization, where everyone seems to be a click away, there seems to be a revelation of the state of loneliness in our society as well. When we use networking tools like Facebook sometimes, are we not also using such platforms as a sounding board for our thoughts? Definitely having said that, I'm not saying that everyone that uses such gadgets are lonely people or in the midst of a particular crisis. What I'm saying rather is that the unintended function of such sites are quite obvious. For example, when someone is going through something tough, and that individual post something, in a few moments, comments will come in asking what is wrong, comforting that person. The internet becomes a form of sanctuary. It becomes a place to seek solace and comforting words in an otherwise fast paced society. In an age where permanence is no longer a lasting phenomenon, what the internet does is to capture a screenshot of an emotional state. Like Facebook, as you look at the live feed...it allows your experiences, your thoughts to generate significance on a constructed space known as the web. Significance is a state in which everyone pursues at some level. Networking sites such as Facebook and blogs allow and entertain such pursuits. Everyone becomes an actor in such exchange. Everyone plays a role, portrays a certain image in these sites. Your identity becomes shaped by those twits, those wall posts and comments. In fact these become individualization tools. These sites become a virtual mirror in which we appraise ourselves.

I think sometimes we even use these platforms for our thought processes. We post something and  the comments aid in negotiating our thinking processes. I guess there is something good and something bad in the midst of all these. I believe that whether we like it or not, there should still be a separation and a line to be drawn between our private thought lives and other less intimate details. We need a time that we can withdraw from the world which encompass the virtual one in decision makings.

I also feel that everything that we see online is rather interpretative. They are fragments of a larger picture. Like what the term connotes..."information-sharing" basically implies that. Most of what we see online are bits and pieces of a larger perspective. Well having said all these...I'm feeling the irony of what I'm doing now.

Saturday contemplation

I think we should seriously think about how certain actions may affect some people. Sometimes our actions may provoke a certain group of people who are more conservative. A response such as "I can't please everybody" really doesn't justify certain sets of behavior. There are always room for conscious decisions to be made.

My stand is this..we should be able to express ourselves honestly. But there is a need for accountability. Otherwise you are just inviting criticisms.

Are we so afraid to think that we ignore and glaze over certain obvious issues?

Monday, February 1, 2010

Presence

Attended today's service and could really feel the presence of God. You know there is this desire in my heart to really enter into the holies of holies...I'm not sure what it is like or if I've been there. I think I've had glimpses of it..I don't know. I've read that when Jonathan Edwards preached the sermon.."Sinners in the hands of an angry God", the fear of God so filled the whole church that the people were grabbing their chairs and repenting before the Lord. 

When Smith Wigglesworth held prayer meetings..one by one the people will literally crawl out of the prayer rooms because they couldn't stand to be in the glory of God. The shekinah glory so filled the rooms where he prayed that they couldn't breathe properly. I'm watching this revival meeting in Brownsville, Florida in the 1990s. In one of the meetings..the glory of God so filled the whole room at the end of a sermon that the people couldn't sit properly..many with their faces on the ground. 

Moses I think came to a point that he couldn't stand just seeing only the hand of God. He wanted to see the face of God. 

I pray that we can meet God in this way more often.